Hello all! Just a little update.... the big day; the continuation is coming just not tonight! LOL!!!
This past week I've been very distracted ~ right now the next course of treatment is physical therapy.
I'd take an hour of REFIT® (Faith & Fitness Zumba) any day over what I'm going through right now, but this is the way I'm being directed right now and I'm going to make the best of it!
Pain has such a way of taking over thoughts, feelings and brings out the nasty in all of us. Even when you have the best of intentions to stay positive ~ it's as if pain has a body all of it's own and jumps in as if you were a surrogate and wanted to display it! I don't!
So I decided that it is more therapeutic to write when all the conditions are right, and I have a great cup of coffee in hand too! I'm hoping round two of PT will give me just a little more relief and less pain than this past week.
Your thoughts and words dictate how you perceive your day to day life. Proverbs 18:21 "Death and life are in the power of the tongue; and they that love it shall eat the fruit thereof." What you say and think in your head either become a blessing to you and your health or become a curse. I choose BLESSING! Think positive, fight the pain, despite feeling horrible ~ try to find the smallest glimmer of hope, a sliver of happiness and love unconditionally.
"I've heard it said that God's divine healing is spiritual; by inviting the Holy Spirit we are inviting the Lord in our Hearts to give us peace and to heal our souls. By listening to God's word we can be healed... Faith is the substance of things hoped for (Hebrews 11:1).
I have Faith...
I also have an Amazing prayer compliments of "From Power Prayers to Bless Your Heart, published by Barbour Publishing, Inc. Used by permission."
For Healing ~ "God, You created me for a long and satisfying life. You knit me together in my mother's womb, and You know every intricate part of my being. You know what I need before I ask, and I'm asking You to return me to good health. You know how my body and mind work, so You know how to heal me. I refuse to let my health be stolen from me. I am determined to fight for it. Direct me to the right doctors, if that's the way I should go. Give me peace to make the right decisions on my journey to recovery." Amen
Thanks for reading my blog and especially for all of you being A Rainbow in my Cloud!
Blessings, Pamela
Sunday, January 11, 2015
Monday, January 5, 2015
Plumb - Lord I'm Ready Now (Official Lyric Video)
So much happened in such a short period of time... looking back it was the most stressful time I can say we had as a family (Tim, my children & I). I joke & say my husband of little Faith.... I was continuously searching for answers for my boy. To the point that my dear husband would sometimes get upset with me because if I found out something from one doctor ~ I'd say no; I'm not happy with what he's telling me. There is something more!
"When He, the Spirit of truth, has come, He will guide you into all truth; for He will not speak on His own authority, but whatever He hears He will speak; and He will tell you things to come." John 16:13. After 13 years of searching... after fighting with schools; teachers not following the IEPS, doctor after doctors; and finally putting Peter in a school that could accommodate all of his recommendations we had peace on the home front!
That's why going to Urgent care in March 2012 and them thinking it was kidney stones was such a joke! I thought this has got to be some sign of STRESS! Looking back it was actually my pelvic wall collapsing causing a rectal hernia, prolapse uterus and crushing my bladder. JOY!!!!!
We all have those songs that just have the ability to motivate us if we so desire; those songs that when we are at our lowest points in our life just bring us back up! Or we keep playing over and over 100 plus times. Britt Nicole Walk on the Water and While I'm Waiting by John Waller had that profound effect on me. Both of these songs have so many meanings for me... waiting for my body to heal, waiting for my soul to heal, waiting for my spirit to be fulfilled again, waiting for answers... so many meanings. I HAVE FAITH! Faith is all it takes to walk on the water too!
It's funny how this new song by Plumb that has come out 2 1/2 years later fits completely to everything we went through! That I went through!
You see; depending on who you talk to... I was a little stubborn. I'd been signed up for this Triathlon since November 1st, 2011. Six months of incredible training, building my mind set that I could accomplish this task! Then my body defeats me! I'm done before I even got a chance to put my foot on that starting line. Realistically I asked ~ "what are the chances I'd be able to compete after my surgery?" I had 9 weeks and 2 days from my surgery date ~ 65 days to the race of my lifetime!
In the grand scheme of things, looking out through rose colored glasses ~ no problem! I'd be good to go. That's all I had to hear! I again offered it right up to the Lord and said it is your will.
"Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him, and He shall direct your paths." Proverbs 3:5, 6
Even when you have the worst of news, you have to keep telling yourself and pretending that it could be worse. Get up, get going and keep going. My saving Grace was that I had wonderful family and friends that were so supportive with words of encouragement, company for my "comeback walks" and thankfully living with the delusion that everything was just GREAT! ;)
My long distant Iron Girls were instrumental in my mental well being ~ keeping me on track, when they would post about group runs, swims or bikes, I'd try to get out there myself and just do it! You ladies were my drive and ambition to just keep trying. Thank you! I wish I had some crazy girls around here to swim, bike & run with... LOL! My Julie was my Awesome workout partner; we were crazy for pumping iron and zumba but she didn't want to swim and bike though! LOL! Maybe in a few more years :)
As much as everyone seems to get aggravated that I always say; Everyday is a New Day! It is! You have to make the most of it! I was alive & like I said ~ if I had to walk the race I would! I followed all of the doctors' orders. After 2 weeks I was allowed to walk... just walk and that's what I did. After 6 weeks I could start to ride my bike again. I didn't swim until 8 weeks; only 3 times in the pool. I wasn't going to take my chances of any kind of infection from lake water until the day of the race.
I'd stay in the back of the pack in my wave so I wouldn't take a chance of getting kicked. I'd take my time. Take that first step into the unknown He won't let you go! So what are you waiting for? What do you have to lose? Your Faith is all it takes and you could walk on the water too!
I highly recommend that you check these two songs out.
I kept singing these songs. I am Waiting, waiting on you Lord & I am hopeful! I am waiting on you Lord, though it is painful but patiently, I will wait. I will move ahead, bold and confident, taking every step in obedience. While I'm waiting I will serve you, while I'm waiting I will not faint I'll be running the race even while I wait. I'm waiting.. I'm waiting on you, Lord. And I am peaceful, I'm waiting on you, Lord though it's not easy but faithfully, I will wait. Yes I will wait.
I will serve You while I'm waiting.. I will worship while I'm waiting... I will serve You while I'm waiting.. I will worship while I'm waiting... I will serve You while I'm waiting.. I will worship while I'm waiting on you, Lord! For 2:48 minutes I kept repeating this song; along with saying prayers for all that supported me on this amazing journey in faith! It was happening!
Now listen to Plumb! Talk about an incredible song that just emulates my entire ordeal! My soul!
I'll continue on with my big day in my next post; I'm afraid this one has gotten away with me a bit. Sorry that it's a little lengthy ~ I am having so much peace writing.
Thanks for reading my blog and especially for all of you being A Rainbow in my Cloud!
Blessings, Pamela
"When He, the Spirit of truth, has come, He will guide you into all truth; for He will not speak on His own authority, but whatever He hears He will speak; and He will tell you things to come." John 16:13. After 13 years of searching... after fighting with schools; teachers not following the IEPS, doctor after doctors; and finally putting Peter in a school that could accommodate all of his recommendations we had peace on the home front!
That's why going to Urgent care in March 2012 and them thinking it was kidney stones was such a joke! I thought this has got to be some sign of STRESS! Looking back it was actually my pelvic wall collapsing causing a rectal hernia, prolapse uterus and crushing my bladder. JOY!!!!!
We all have those songs that just have the ability to motivate us if we so desire; those songs that when we are at our lowest points in our life just bring us back up! Or we keep playing over and over 100 plus times. Britt Nicole Walk on the Water and While I'm Waiting by John Waller had that profound effect on me. Both of these songs have so many meanings for me... waiting for my body to heal, waiting for my soul to heal, waiting for my spirit to be fulfilled again, waiting for answers... so many meanings. I HAVE FAITH! Faith is all it takes to walk on the water too!
It's funny how this new song by Plumb that has come out 2 1/2 years later fits completely to everything we went through! That I went through!
You see; depending on who you talk to... I was a little stubborn. I'd been signed up for this Triathlon since November 1st, 2011. Six months of incredible training, building my mind set that I could accomplish this task! Then my body defeats me! I'm done before I even got a chance to put my foot on that starting line. Realistically I asked ~ "what are the chances I'd be able to compete after my surgery?" I had 9 weeks and 2 days from my surgery date ~ 65 days to the race of my lifetime!
In the grand scheme of things, looking out through rose colored glasses ~ no problem! I'd be good to go. That's all I had to hear! I again offered it right up to the Lord and said it is your will.
"Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him, and He shall direct your paths." Proverbs 3:5, 6
Even when you have the worst of news, you have to keep telling yourself and pretending that it could be worse. Get up, get going and keep going. My saving Grace was that I had wonderful family and friends that were so supportive with words of encouragement, company for my "comeback walks" and thankfully living with the delusion that everything was just GREAT! ;)
My long distant Iron Girls were instrumental in my mental well being ~ keeping me on track, when they would post about group runs, swims or bikes, I'd try to get out there myself and just do it! You ladies were my drive and ambition to just keep trying. Thank you! I wish I had some crazy girls around here to swim, bike & run with... LOL! My Julie was my Awesome workout partner; we were crazy for pumping iron and zumba but she didn't want to swim and bike though! LOL! Maybe in a few more years :)
As much as everyone seems to get aggravated that I always say; Everyday is a New Day! It is! You have to make the most of it! I was alive & like I said ~ if I had to walk the race I would! I followed all of the doctors' orders. After 2 weeks I was allowed to walk... just walk and that's what I did. After 6 weeks I could start to ride my bike again. I didn't swim until 8 weeks; only 3 times in the pool. I wasn't going to take my chances of any kind of infection from lake water until the day of the race.
I'd stay in the back of the pack in my wave so I wouldn't take a chance of getting kicked. I'd take my time. Take that first step into the unknown He won't let you go! So what are you waiting for? What do you have to lose? Your Faith is all it takes and you could walk on the water too!
I highly recommend that you check these two songs out.
I kept singing these songs. I am Waiting, waiting on you Lord & I am hopeful! I am waiting on you Lord, though it is painful but patiently, I will wait. I will move ahead, bold and confident, taking every step in obedience. While I'm waiting I will serve you, while I'm waiting I will not faint I'll be running the race even while I wait. I'm waiting.. I'm waiting on you, Lord. And I am peaceful, I'm waiting on you, Lord though it's not easy but faithfully, I will wait. Yes I will wait.
I will serve You while I'm waiting.. I will worship while I'm waiting... I will serve You while I'm waiting.. I will worship while I'm waiting... I will serve You while I'm waiting.. I will worship while I'm waiting on you, Lord! For 2:48 minutes I kept repeating this song; along with saying prayers for all that supported me on this amazing journey in faith! It was happening!
Now listen to Plumb! Talk about an incredible song that just emulates my entire ordeal! My soul!
I'll continue on with my big day in my next post; I'm afraid this one has gotten away with me a bit. Sorry that it's a little lengthy ~ I am having so much peace writing.
Thanks for reading my blog and especially for all of you being A Rainbow in my Cloud!
Blessings, Pamela
Thursday, January 1, 2015
Happy New Year 2015!!!
It's going to be an Amazing year; filled with "unbelievable blessings"..."uniqueness in
perspective of what things appear to be and what things are presumed to be"...
"coolness"... and an unbelievable testament to family, love and faith.... Bring it on!
Hopefully refreshening news of better health predictions in the directions I need to go but I enter this New Year with an open heart and a smile on my face! I'm extremely blessed to be on this Journey in Faith with all my family and friends that are remarkably supportive to me. Thank you.
Hopefully refreshening news of better health predictions in the directions I need to go but I enter this New Year with an open heart and a smile on my face! I'm extremely blessed to be on this Journey in Faith with all my family and friends that are remarkably supportive to me. Thank you.
3 years ago on this very Eve I was counting the hours & days....
217 until my first ever Triathlon in August of 2012! An Iron Girl Triathlon.
600 meter swim, 30k bike & 5K run.
An incredible experience that I wasn't letting anything stop me from getting! ANYTHING!
I was on the right path. For the first time in my life, I wanted nothing more to be healthy!
I'd say I almost became an obsessed, crazy woman! But really, it was the adrenaline
that takes over for the fear of the unknown. Unbelievable Faith in knowing I could and would do it too!
The month of January I was in Zumba class 3 to 4 times a week... swimming 2 times a week
and had never run more than a mile since high school. So now I was trying to
get a mile in without having to stop and take a breath or cough out a lung or die of a heart attack.
In between all of that I was also working out at the gym 3 to 5 times a week with weight training
and cardio. Yes a little over the top! I'd do anything to be able to get that back....
I couldn't get enough of Zumba! Friends actually kidded me and said it was a cult. My true love was REFIT®. I had discovered them on youtube. I'm a REFIT® instructor still waiting patiently to get this Revolution started in Western New York!
I continued on with that pace into the beginning of March. I had signed up to run my first 10K Shamrock Run in Buffalo on March 3rd. Honestly, I'm a firm believer that things happen for a reason. Well it was a sign... 60 mile an hour gusts of wind, snow and honestly I had my first physical sign that maybe I should start slowing it down a bit and just swim and Zumba a while. I went to Urgent Care on the 4th; get ready for this possible kidney stones because of the location on my lower back that it was located.
I really did take it easy. After a while I started running again, along with Zumba & swimming. April and May. I kept a diary of everything I did right down to what I ate, how much I weighted daily and my calorie consumption and by this time I actually had started riding my bike. I was getting anywhere between 5 to 10 miles every other day. That my be a later blog ~ the insane schedule I followed but it worked!
I really did take it easy. After a while I started running again, along with Zumba & swimming. April and May. I kept a diary of everything I did right down to what I ate, how much I weighted daily and my calorie consumption and by this time I actually had started riding my bike. I was getting anywhere between 5 to 10 miles every other day. That my be a later blog ~ the insane schedule I followed but it worked!
I've had a few absolutely memorable Mother's days in my life since becoming a Mom that I will NEVER forget! My first; my Peter being born the Friday before, the third Mother's day when Peter actually called me Mom for the first time when he was 3. (He had less than 1% expressive language until he was almost 3 when we had his tongue clipped and adenoids removed; now my boy hasn't stopped talking since!) The third time ~ May 12th, 2012 ~ Saturday.
This is where life has dramatically changed me to be always looking for "A Rainbow in my Cloud". Shhhh..... it's kind of hard to talk about ~ NOT! Sorry, not in this day and age. It's called Pelvic Prolapse and it afflicts over 3 million women in the United States.
Honestly the biggest question I got was ~ "Well you were exercising too much, or lifting? That's what did it."
I had so much guilt that I thought I had done this to myself but guess what: It can happen to anyone (men too!). After the initial shock wore off which didn't really happen until my first surgery June 1st, was in the books.
I was determined whether I walked the entire triathlon or not to at least start it and maybe finish it.
I left it in God's hands. My complete trust ... everything.... I kept repeating in my head "She is Strong & Courageous" Deuteronomy 31:6.
Most of you know me... I did it and I am an Iron Girl Triathlete but I've decided this blog is too long & I'm done for another time.
My platform in life as significantly changed. I am outspoken about my issues; it's not something to be ashamed about. It is what it is and we as a family are dealing with it as best as we can.
For now I just wanted to write a little bit tonight; I'm still learning how to blog. Not very good either but oh well. It's surprisingly therapeutic and costs less than therapy.
Everyday is a new day. When you wake up, get up and keep repeating that to yourself, "Everyday is a New day"! You might be in pain, but it could be a new kind of pain today, or 1% less than what it was the day before. I truly believe and I trust wholeheartedly that God is working in my life and wants me to share my trials and tribulations at this point. This could be the closest I ever get to writing a book! LOL!
Thanks for reading my blog and especially for all of you being ~ A Rainbow in my Cloud!
Blessings, Pamela
For now I just wanted to write a little bit tonight; I'm still learning how to blog. Not very good either but oh well. It's surprisingly therapeutic and costs less than therapy.
Everyday is a new day. When you wake up, get up and keep repeating that to yourself, "Everyday is a New day"! You might be in pain, but it could be a new kind of pain today, or 1% less than what it was the day before. I truly believe and I trust wholeheartedly that God is working in my life and wants me to share my trials and tribulations at this point. This could be the closest I ever get to writing a book! LOL!
Thanks for reading my blog and especially for all of you being ~ A Rainbow in my Cloud!
Blessings, Pamela
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