Monday, January 5, 2015

Plumb - Lord I'm Ready Now (Official Lyric Video)

So much happened in such a short period of time... looking back it was the most stressful time I can say we had as a family (Tim, my children & I).  I joke & say my husband of little Faith.... I was continuously searching for answers for my boy.  To the point that my dear husband would sometimes get upset with me because if I found out something from one doctor ~ I'd say no; I'm not happy with what he's telling me.  There is something more!


"When He, the Spirit of truth, has come, He will guide you into all truth; for He will not speak on His own authority, but whatever He hears He will speak; and He will tell you things to come."  John 16:13.  After 13 years of searching... after fighting with schools; teachers not following the IEPS, doctor after doctors; and finally putting Peter in a school that could accommodate all of his recommendations we had peace on the home front!


That's why going to Urgent care in March 2012 and them thinking it was kidney stones was such a joke!  I thought this has got to be some sign of STRESS!  Looking back it was actually my pelvic wall collapsing causing a rectal hernia, prolapse uterus and crushing my bladder.  JOY!!!!!


We all have those songs that just have the ability to motivate us if we so desire; those songs that when we are at our lowest points in our life just bring us back up!  Or we keep playing over and over 100 plus times.  Britt Nicole Walk on the Water and While I'm Waiting by John Waller had that profound effect on me.  Both of these songs have so many meanings for me... waiting for my body to heal, waiting for my soul to heal, waiting for my spirit to be fulfilled again, waiting for answers... so many meanings.  I HAVE FAITH!  Faith is all it takes to walk on the water too!


It's funny how this new song by Plumb that has come out 2 1/2 years later fits completely to everything we went through!  That I went through!


You see; depending on who you talk to... I was a little stubborn.  I'd been signed up for this Triathlon since November 1st, 2011.  Six months of incredible training, building my mind set that I could accomplish this task!  Then my body defeats me!  I'm done before I even got a chance to put my foot on that starting line.  Realistically I asked ~ "what are the chances I'd be able to compete after my surgery?"  I had 9 weeks and 2 days from my surgery date ~ 65 days to the race of my lifetime!


In the grand scheme of things, looking out through rose colored glasses ~ no problem!  I'd be good to go.  That's all I had to hear!  I again offered it right up to the Lord and said it is your will.

"Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him, and He shall direct your paths."  Proverbs 3:5, 6   


Even when you have the worst of news, you have to keep telling yourself and pretending that it could be worse.  Get up, get going and keep going.  My saving Grace was that I had wonderful family and friends that were so supportive with words of encouragement, company for my "comeback walks" and thankfully living with the delusion that everything was just GREAT!  ;)

My long distant Iron Girls were instrumental in my mental well being ~ keeping me on track, when they would post about group runs, swims or bikes, I'd try to get out there myself and just do it!  You ladies were my drive and ambition to just keep trying.  Thank you!  I wish I had some crazy girls around here to swim, bike & run with... LOL!   My Julie was my Awesome workout partner; we were crazy for pumping iron and zumba but she didn't want to swim and bike though!  LOL!  Maybe in a few more years  :)

As much as everyone seems to get aggravated that I always say; Everyday is a New Day!  It is!  You have to make the most of it!  I was alive & like I said ~ if I had to walk the race I would!  I followed all of the doctors' orders.  After 2 weeks I was allowed to walk... just walk and that's what I did.  After 6 weeks I could start to ride my bike again.  I didn't swim until 8 weeks; only 3 times in the pool.  I wasn't going to take my chances of any kind of infection from lake water until the day of the race.

I'd stay in the back of the pack in my wave so I wouldn't take a chance of getting kicked.  I'd take my time.  Take that first step into the unknown He won't let you go!  So what are you waiting for?  What do you have to lose?  Your Faith is all it takes and you could walk on the water too!


I highly recommend that you check these two songs out.


I kept singing these songs.  I am Waiting, waiting on you Lord & I am hopeful!  I am waiting on you Lord, though it is painful but patiently, I will wait.  I will move ahead, bold and confident, taking every step in obedience.  While I'm waiting I will serve you, while I'm waiting I will not faint I'll be running the race even while I wait.  I'm waiting.. I'm waiting on you, Lord.  And I am peaceful, I'm waiting on you, Lord though it's not easy but faithfully, I will wait.  Yes I will wait.

I will serve You while I'm waiting.. I will worship while I'm waiting... I will serve You while I'm waiting.. I will worship while I'm waiting... I will serve You while I'm waiting.. I will worship while I'm waiting on you, Lord!  For 2:48 minutes I kept repeating this song; along with saying prayers for all that supported me on this amazing journey in faith!   It was happening!


Now listen to Plumb!  Talk about an incredible song that just emulates my entire ordeal!  My soul!

I'll continue on with my big day in my next post; I'm afraid this one has gotten away with me a bit.  Sorry that it's a little lengthy ~ I am having so much peace writing.


Thanks for reading my blog and especially for all of you being A Rainbow in my Cloud!


Blessings, Pamela

                                                                







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